i am back in singapore! very bored. i am thinking of what to do. i met some classmates for breakfast, went to the gym and now i am at home.
my new past time is playing Wii tennis and pingpong. it gives me a very good workout. will be going back in a week for summer. i came back because my ticket is going to expire.
i am bored of shopping. bought way too much stuff. a hermes cuff yesterday.
i am waiting to pick eugene up from school and go for lunch. for the time being, i am fucking bored.
i am doing something, chatting with shuk. she is trying to make me feel guilty for forgetting to buy the tom ford shades she wanted so badly, juicy couture ipod case and pouch. i swear i did not receive her sms if not i would have bought all of them.
2007-07-07summer has been very good.
looking forward to the weekend trip to washington dc with alex, jess and jeric! going to jet off in a few hours! it is going to be my first visit to the capital.
been working out regularly in the morning. keeping up my fitness. slowly getting back to where i was..
contradiction
too much alcohol over the past few weeks.
i need to go apartment hunting as we figured staying in an apartment will be more convenient. america being so huge and so colleges aren't that near to each other.
decided on ucla because of the distance and the environment.
very indecisive on my major but there is still alot of time.
alex and jess cooked yesterday which turn out surprisingly decent.
2007-06-16just got back from st james power house. went with alex, chris, jess, danelle, joce and a few others. the guys had some trouble getting in but we manage somehow. we open a bottle of moet and chivas. joce did not drink much so she drove a few of us home.
saturday will be the BIG night before i leave again. hotel room booked so everyone can get high and wasted.
before that we chilled at the clinic. a pretty cool place.
40 sticks
NICOTINE DETOX STARTS
2007-06-14this is the best present my family would want. for my mum especially, she does not say anything when she sees me smoking but from her eyes i can tell she is so disappointed in me. she was tearing when she saw me coughing blood out.
so i am going to quit smoking. my second attempt! it is going to be tough and it will take quite a while but i am sure i can do it.
i took my first step. no more reds but menthol or lights.
also, no more one pack per day.
this week no more than 15 sticks and one less each day till 10 sticks.
the next week 10 sticks and one less each day till 5 sticks.
not going to take any nicobate or what shit..
the last deadline - before i turn 19.
heard of slow and steady wins the race? alex, don't rush. take it slow. you can do it! we share pack?
2007-06-12i am singapore! been five days or so..
dad booked a flight for me as my grandma was ill and wanted to see me. glad that she is recovering well. i have been going to mount e every single day after gym sessions. hospital wards looks like hotel suite & you don't feel like you are visiting a patient! how cool is that?
being in singapore still feels as good. met up with the friends that matter,
went to st james, dxo and mos in the past few days with chris, daryl, daniel, jh, jj and a couple of others.
on friday, chris got so drunk and i had to drive his car back when i was so high.. all the fucking way to holland village! then daryl and i took separate cabs back. did i mention i stay near katong?
on sunday, all guys bbq and drinking session at my place!
my dad was fucking whining like a pussy over a small scratch on the 6series which he let me drive so i can rush from one appointment to another. the 4.5l engine eats petrol real fast! for the remaining days, i will drive the S class.
eating and shopping is one of the best things to do in singapore.
the great singapore sale! prada was having a sale so i pop by and bought one pair of sneakers and a few tops. bloody LV never ever goes on sale but i went to buy a belt. classics never goes wrong.
i bought a bag to put my gym stuff from LV and my mum fucking flared up saying that i was wasting too much money. she confiscated the bag and she is using it.
i go to the gym so often so the bag will be worth the price and i will not change it so often. why can't she get it? i told her my friend(shuk) uses a prada bag as her gym bag and why can't i use LV?
my mum just fucking don't get that most teenagers do use branded bags if they can afford it and i am not the only one!
she thinks shuk is another exception. alex is also another exception. jess is ALSO ANOTHER EXCEPTION.
that was random
i still fucking want the LV bag.
2007-05-18simple pleasures like smoking and drinking beer in the balcony can be very relaxing.
had a good time chatting with my cousins about life, relationship, the future and general stuff.
distance is everything.
2007-05-14the world is so fucking small. i went to the gym and saw some asshole. so he is in LA too.
i got rushed into hospital a few days back. i could not breathe and was on the verge of dying. damn after a thorough check up, found a problem. yes fucked. nothing serious and probably i will die a few years younger that's all. i will still live to see my friends get married and scare their kids.
my uncle had to tell my parents and they are worried. they should have more sons so they will not need to care so much about me. my grandma went bonkers after hearing that i was in hospital. she called me every few hours to check on me and told me that she will send all the herbal shit. wanted to fly all the way here to visit me!
my life is not that precious so don't worry. i do not need to live till 100 years old.
2007-04-30fucking school work and the lack of social life
my routine is so standard.
on monday
starbucks
chill
lunch
class
chill
dinner
game
i read an article about the images shown on the cig boxes. the more smokers see the images the more they smoke to calm their nerves.
what is the point of putting those fucking gross images? we will smoke as usual and smoke more.
i do not see my friends throwing cigs into the bin!
one friend from secondary school asked why am i reluctant to go back to singapore?
i am not reluctant but i feel that we need to be away from our comfort zone to learn. singapore's education system is great but it's not all about the books, it's about the experience and exposure.
i am only 18. we live life once so why not live to the fullest. yes i miss the friends in singapore and so on. true friends will be there forever so why fear?
if i do not see alex for years, i am sure he will not forget me right? friends for more than a decade. see how such friendship goes on and on.
jess, i am on menthol now. under someone's instruction and valuable advice. i quite like it. tell alex to go easy.
2007-04-17we did go to miami ink! it was fucking crowded. i got inked two days before and daniel insisted that he wanted an appt with Ami James. he was not in the shop. daniel being daniel decided that being there, sitting there and inking there was all that matters so he said anyone will do.
yes i fucking drove daniel down to miami and back. when we came back the next day ser was like, "YOU WENT TO MIAMI JUST TO GO TO MIAMI INK AND NOT GET INKED BY AMI JAMES.. WHAT A SHAME"
parents will be coming next week.
alex and jess booked their tickets! chris might want to come too. new york this time!
shuk wants to go to indonesia and spend quality time in singapore so she will not think about it or ask her mum. what a bitch, shuk!
daniel has a crazy idea! he wants to go to miami to do a tattoo at miami ink!
i have turn 18 and i have always thought of doing one. it's about time i put it into action.
i was there when daniel did his first tatt, it will be cool for him to be there for my first tatt.
i want to do something that have a meaning so i am going to do a modification of yin and yang sign.
before i was being told the meaning of yin and yang i never knew where to stop. my life was in a mess. i hated going to school, my grades were bad, i hated going home, i gave my parents hell. i had the mindset that by doing all that will make me happier than buying anything i want.
one fine day i was sitting at a coffee shop and this stranger randomly told me about yin and yang. i didn't bother taking note. neither did i realise i had a painting of that sign at home. i asked my dad and he told me and some stories..
from that day onwards i told myself that i have to do something that i am proud of and i will recieve happiness that came from the fruit of labour.
thus, i work hard for my prelims and o levels. from a 40 pointers, i scored 15 points in prelims and 11 points for o levels.
i have never felt that good and for one who scored 209 for psle it was an achievement.
now, i am doing well and enjoying my life.
i play hard and study hard.
this tattoo will also represent a turning point in my life. me moving on to other challenges. having a balance in life. and treasure life.
i do not regret picking up smoking and neither do i feel that it is a good thing. it is my lifestyle choice.
i believe every single tatt one ink has a meaning of its own.
jess did two lines down which represents the long road ahead and never look back but move on. also, always to walk the straight route and believe there's a way out. determination will bring her to the finishing line.
thanks for sharing that!
i always thought you did tattoos for the kick of it just like those piercings...
shuk did hers and it took me so long to dig out the meaning of the tatt. fucking sensitive so do not ask her. i endured scoldings, death notes and warnings for the story. if i ever say it out, I DIE. happy?
enough of my tattoo inking talk.
alex, stay tune to whether i will get myself inked.
2007-04-03mid terms are coming! it means studying and more studying?
partied the whole weekend away as usual.
alex and jess are coming over during summer which means i will be going back very late!
daniel is coming over to look at colleges and stuff next week! he better buy cigs for me
there is no point trying to quit, buying nicotine patches, gum and inhaler for me. it is fucking not working! so let's just not talk about cutting down or quiting this habit and read the below conv by hsu shuk mun
shuk: smoking is glamourise so it does not mean you are useless or will not succeed if you smoke. it is just a lifestyle choice
shuk: glamour or not...
shuk: it is subjective
don't fucking come snatch my dunhills anymore! i will flare and kick your fucking ass to space.
i repeat
you do not have to stand near me if i smoke because i do not need company and i do not want your life to be ruin by becoming a passive smoker so fuck off and not try to talk to me when im smoking.
stop waiting for me to go for classes. i go when i feel like. i can simply not go even if i said i will go. it's my choice again
we are good friends but don't go to that extreme. it is getting overboard. do not try to control my life.
this weekend we will be going on a budget roadtrip. it will be as exciting as wild hogs!
2007-03-20i should consider doing a summer in new york! edward and i had this very interesting talk and we are thinking of doing fashion design!
lynn said i could go ahead but she doubt edward's ability!
i love going to new york! a weekend in new york!
it was amazing as usual.
the next time we are going to florida! i can hardly wait!
2007-03-14
my exams results were great, to me at least. 90marks for marco economics! 94 for art history! in short, all subjects hit the 90s! i was fucking happy!
this sounds way too ambitious but i send in my application to browns, berkeley, usc and yales. i hope to do architecture in yales! i am crossing my fingers!
the whole ns issue is so frustrating! i will go back to serve the country after this semester! actually, i might not. i dont give a fuck. i can hold a tourist visa and still feel like home in singapore.
the night life has been great! frequently so many fucking nice clubs, the interior were hell nice! i tend to be too generous when i am drunk. i find myself penniless the next day.
before i went back to la, i went to perth! it was fun hanging out with alex, jess, jon in the resort house. we partied every night! i crashed jess's lectures, smoked and read magazines for one fucking hour for two days while waiting for alex's tutorial to end, attempted to cook breakfast but failed, grocery shopped every single day and lastly i swam and shop to kill my time in the day..
i will be going to new york again for the weekend!
ALEX AND SHUK THANK YOU FOR THE PARCEL! I KNOW IT IS COSTLY BECAUSE THE TAX IS SO FUCKING MUCH!
2007-02-19I AM IN SINGAPORE!
i have not met up with any friends. it's all family, family 'friends' time! fucking boring and pointless but it's the tradition.
cny's eve had the usual reunion lunch and dinner. all the relatives talking and finding out about my life, asking about my hair and so on..
1st day was the usual visiting! so many houses.. ended off with dinner at my daniel's place
and yes today.. stuck at home because relatives are visiting! went to two houses in the morning.
relatives had lunch at my place. catered food out at the garden.
dinner tonight with my dad's good friend and family at straits kitchen.
busy two days ahead!
2007-02-13i had the best birthday celebration thanks to my wonderful cousins and friends! thank you for throwing me a surprise party before i left for newyork! the cousins for accompanying me to newyork! of course to the newyork-ers - edward&lynn for being such great host!
not forgetting my parents who sponsered our trip to ny! ny is my favourite city of all time! shuk, i agree with you that spore is home but there can be more than one home right? i will choose ny and spore!
i had the most unpleasant experience in ny but ny is still great! the balenciaga boutique there has the worse service!
my dad told me to get any style and colour that i think was suitable for my mum!
i got the naturel colour for my mum! hope she loves it even more after knowing how much trouble i went through buying that bag!
i am going back to singapore for two weeks! alex is already in perth and refuses to come back for cny! shuk will be leaving on the first day of cny! at least i get to meet the sydney people, jess, chris, my cousins, shawn, jeff and others that matter.
2007-02-021st post of 2007!
i am doing well and school stinks! i do not get cny holidays but i hope i will get to make my own holidays! thinking of going back for cny! hopefully, i get to go back a few days before it as alex and the rest will be going back to down under! it will be pointless and part of the closer cousins are here in la or flying to la during the cny weekends!
i want a cartier watch for my birthday!
i am going to be 18! it is time for celebrations! i wish i was in singapore! the best birthday present will be a ticket to singapore!
alex just text me
- i can't think of what to give you for your birthday! what about a tour around perth all-expenses on me? excluding air tickets of course
and a few hours ago shuk text me
- where to buy expensive GUYS jeans in spore? my dad wants to buy. not seven of all man kind of brands. for more mature men and higher cuts. get it? i cant tell him to go to black jack right? lol.
how random can those two bored people stuck in singapore get!
2006-12-30alex, sorry for not updating you with my life.. spore better be treating you too well to be sending me emails of concern. so cheesy but miss you dude. i better see you soon! keep me updated on your life and travel dates! have a good funky new year best friend!
the best ever christmas in vegas spend with my cousins, chris, jess, jr and not forgetting my parents, aunt/uncles!
jr went back to singapore on boxing day while chris and jess flew off to meet their parents and sanfrans.
been rather free these few days and it got me thinking.. when i think, nothing good comes out of it. it brings me back to square one.
i made my mind on going back for ns but have not decided yet. enlisting on april if i were to go back.
life is great now.
the new year is coming!
perfect!
big change of plans!
chris, jess, jr are coming on 14 dec! sounds like fun!
then on 20th, the whole group of us including daniel, eugene, jason, ser and all are going to vegas to celebrate CHRISTMAS!
it will be a change. no more newyork white christmas but i am not complaining.
i will be celebrating new year's in new york(hopefully).
ALEX PULLED OUT. this sound so gay but he promise me to come in dec. now he does not want to come because he wants to spend more time in singapore! alex leong! you are such a fucking asshole! you better make up for it! you suck for being able to defer to! i am so fucking pissed off with you.
chatting on the phone with miss hsu now while she is munching her donuts. she is the only person i regularly chat with on the phone with
because of that our phone bills always hit sky high.
the msg shuk sent - i spend 1 tenth of my allowance just on fucking phone bills because of that i use 140% more of my allowance every month and thus i am broke. call me instead.
anyway,
my holiday plans are more or less confirmed
shopping time
BYE
exams next week!
i have to stay clear from all distractions. cousins are here, my parents are at vegas now.
they better entertain themselves because i need to get my scores. i need to do fucking well.
i just ate one pint of ben and jerry's vanilla ice cream.
i went to disneyland yest with daniel and eugene.
after exams, i will be going to vegas with my cousins! just books the tickets and will be staying there for a week!
i cannot wait
shuk, i queued up for fucking one hour to pay for my goods at polo at fucking 3am. i can't find the red and black big pony socks.
anyway, black friday shopping was fucking good. the guys mainly my dad, daniel, eugene, jason and i spend two hours at polo. the deals were very good. we bought so much stuff that some could not be put in my boot. when we met up back, the LADIES were shock at the amount we bought.
my mum was like, " you and your son... stocking up for war?"
the LADIES bought less than us because they dislike the queue and think that their beauty sleep were more important.
now i do feel that some of my goods that i have bought, i will not wear them. maybe i do need to sell them on ebay?
chris and his friends are coming next week!
2006-11-25thanksgiving was great! our parents flew down and the mums cooked a really good meal. we were shocked. lunch was asian food then dinner was turkey with stuffings and all the usual top it off with homemade warm chocolate cake with the ultimate coldstone's ice cream.
it really feels good having the family here. eugene and daniel are here on a holiday too.
my dad shares my love for big pony too. eugene calls us big pony family! yesterday three of us wore the white and black pony with the same number at the side. we got all stares and i felt old wearing the shirt. i have around 16 big pony shirts, i totally adore them.
i cannot wait for christmas which is one month away. twelve of us are going to new york for white christmas! i miss new york!
i am not quite done with my university applications yet. it is fucking irritating because i am still deciding what i want to do in university. i am very fickled-minded. i am thinking of doing communications.
the next time i will be flying back to singapore will probably be during chinese new year. the only festive season worth being back for.
to this someone that i owe a million apologies for breaking her heart:
sorry for the six weeks but we did had fun? sorry for being irresponsible and calling it off so abruptly. it is not you but my problem. i have not move on since and that is something i cannot face. it is not fair to you and you deserve more than this. you said we can never be friends again? whatever happens, you will always be my special friend.
chris, if you happen to read this. contact me ya? are you still coming up to LA?
2006-11-14for the sake of shuk
15 facts, 5 false statements.
1. new york is my favourite city.
2. i scored 4A1s for o levels.
3. i am still wearing braces.
4. i have perfect eyesight
5. i like playing rugby, soccer, tennis, golf.
6. i have a brother.
7. i can drive.
8. krispy kreme are my favourite donuts.
9. i eat ice cream every single day.
10. i miss orchard road
11. i have a band.
12. i have over 70 pairs of sneakers.
13. i used to like mambo, levis and stussy.
14. i have over 40 pairs of jeans.
15. i have been to all the disneylands in the word.
16. i like watching artistic films.
17. i have three mobile phone lines.
18. i drank 4 shots of barcadi 151 in a row.
19. i have seen and took a photo with paris hilton.
20. i never got a chance to wear my hugo boss suit
halloween !
i fucking do not want to dress up but aft much nagging from my cousins. i decided to dress up as a skeleton which means i have to paint my face, wear my skeleton tee and black jeans with random stripes, black/white sneakers.
now they cannot say that i am not fun to be with
i have exams.
i need to sketch tons of 3-d images. i am going bonkers. i have no inspiration.
i am just not good at editting photos, enhancing the colour and all that crap.
i must keep my 3.75 average.
i need to study
before that
miss hsu finally replied my email
it made me so emo and touched by this lines though it was a very long one
- new adventures beat old experiences anyday but nothing can be compared a good old friend's company.
anyway, chat with chris a few days back. we both have not done our national service yet. the lucky dude could defer a few years back. sadly, i can't. now i do not know if i should go back for ns. it is not a cowardly behavior. i do not want to do so because i want to continue with my education. i am in a very good position to get in a top university.
the alternative is a very big step and a change of passport colour.
the place i grew up
VS
the place where my dreams-come-true
i will get to do what i have always wanted though i am not very certain right now.
i want to do so many things but for sure, it is art-related.
it is always so difficult to put behind everything and move away. the feeling of home will be different, having a time limit.
i do not know if giving up everything for that two years is worth it
but then again
what if i change during these two years
had one of the best nights. went to this celebrity club, hyde. thanks to some relatives invites. vip treatment.
it was fucking fun!
before that we went to geisha house which serve really good food.
few weeks back, i went for good charlotte's concert.
and weekends of random partying with the company of edward chong.
the feeling of clubbing with friends you have known for a long time is so different, it feels like that friend have been there through every phrase of your life.
sorry that i have not updated the people far far away about my very boring and unhappening life i have been leading
my parents gave me a surprise! they came to pick me up at my college! they do not even do that when i was in secondary school so imagine how fucking shock i was! they bought me a car and drove it to school. the point is they had to risk their lives because they let me drive! they gave me a 5 series! the car i said i wanted!
i miss my parents! they left a week ago!
edward chong and shaun came to visit me!
JEFF AND SHAWN LEE are coming next week!
sporeans, please come to LA to visit me! i will drive you around, starting from picking you up at the airport!
shuk is very jealous that no one wants to visit her in melbourne! come to LA! we can visit each other so you will not be jealous!
shuk. says:
they like the place not you
shuk. says:
just that melb is boring if it is more interesting, fun than la. no one will visit you
shuk. says:
you dont need to spell that out. irritating LA BOY
(i said she was jealous)
you ask me to update, so i post the conversation too
there is more
the other side says:
what did you tell shuk? shuk demanded me to go to melbourne before i go to LA!
chaos, i like thursday(s) says:
nothing much. just enough info to make her jealous
the other side says:
that must be worth 30gb of info then
chaos, i like thursday(s) says:
?!!! just 1 sentence!
i guess that's enough of shuk's jealous meter
i will update more later
2006-01-20i can drive now! going to get a car when my mum comes. i have not enough funds to buy the car i want. i got over the cool sports car phrase.
my mum is going to stay with us for a week! if she can cook, i will be more than happy but she can't! i will have to serve her and there is no room service. my dad says she will move to a hotel in two days. i do hope so.
bought the xbox 360. i am a game freak. also the new macbook. it is so fucking new and black. it matches my ipod video. i like black gadgets. i have a black psp, phone, ipod and laptop. i will get a black car to match it all. i just got reminded BLACK EAR PIECE!
black still the new black
i do not deny i love branded goods. from apple to polo to gucci.
BIG PONY is cool. it is fucking cool!
sch has been fucking busy.
BYE
i fucking hate school. i have tons of assignments. school is out to kill me. i went for this maths class and i could not understand a single shit. i looked at jason and he was doing his work! so it got something to do with my intelligence. i felt so dumb.
next, i went for psychology class. i was the only guy in the class. wtf. JASON PLAYED ME OUT. he change his subject without telling me.
there is still three more days to go
i want my holidays
i am so fucking tired
i want more breaks
there was a labour day wkend but that's not enough
back to my essay
jason called, telling me school starts this week! upon hearing that, i was stunned. told my mum she book me a flight, she put me on the next flight back to LA. mad rush. went back, packed my stuff. managed to get back to the fuckin airport in 4 hours. still manage to go for a decent meal before going to the airport. did not have class on monday and i start at 2pm on tuesday so i can buy my books. jason thought i will not be back and was shocked to see me.
i had a very good holiday this time. will not be back till next summer! 3 months to dec!
i am not ready for school. i wish i had holidays for another month.
i am going to take my driving test soon. if i pass, i will have a car. i do not need to call jason everytime or take the fucking bus.
i spend $----- this holiday alone. can buy one decent car here! my dad said i had a spending problem.
MAYBE i am going to get a job to try how working life is like but i need to learn the skills first. ronny suggested me to go scoop icecream or work at the cafe? i prefer a job that works at night but i am underage.
i need a fucking job
MAYBE NOT
going back to singapore on sunday.
it has been fun. after the party at my place, alex, jess and jr brought darren and i to club. we were chilling, drinking cocktails. alex got onto the dance floor to shuffle a bit. when he started, we had to show that we could do so too!! many pple were cheering for us as we took turns to shuffle. my respect goes to jr, he could shuffle so fuckin well.
met a few friends there too. what a small world.
woke up at 12. went out lunch with my parents then we went walked ard.
had dinner where 3 of us caught up. my parents said that we will make it a point to go for a holiday during every vacation i have.
i have promise play a part in the holiday but going for it.
we planned our next vacation which is new york for white christmas, i suggested it then to las vegas for new yrs.
4 days till i return to LA.
btw, USC did not accept me for this sem. back to the same old college but different people.
it takes alot of effort to keep up with fitness. to go to the gym, two hrs is taken up. during these two hrs you could be out chilling out with friends or slacking at home. to party and to keep up with fitness is the most difficult things to do together. can you workout when you are suffering from a hangover? apart of that, school is demanding. during the holidays, you would like to party more, sleep more and hang out more.
where is the workout sessions going to come in?
a huge juggle i am going to face. i need to try. giving up some time to hang out with people to work out. i need it for NS sake.
done with my rambling. bye
2006-08-24met alex, jess and jr! they brought me ard perth. thank you so much and dinner at my place on fri! they like my place and asked my dad if they could help us 'guard' the place. my parents found alex still very much like his cheeky younger days. he is going to kill me if he sees this
it feels good seeing them again! like the times we hung out in spore. now we wish aussie is as small as spore.
as i have mention darren reminded me of my younger days although, he is 3 years older than me. i was shocked when he spoke, it was like my thinking a few years back. not that he is childish but it's funny yet unbelievable. i told him that and he thought i was kidding. well, he do not believe i am 17. i do think travelling around the world expose me to more than using words like 'fuck' everywhere and anywhere. i still use it but out of anger and habit.
chris told me the funniest news of the day.
shuk, CHEER UP! i doubt you are unhappy over it. you have me in aussie land though a few hundred miles away. you are a very rare friend. i said so because when you like a place, you will keep going back to the place till the people will knw you. from a emotionless, grumpy customer to a friendly, appreciative, well-like, fondly remembered and missed customer/friend. that's what one of the cafe staff told me. thought it was pointless to say the last time but i just want to let you know, you are one that reveals what you have and you are in time to come. whoever you are refering to might not understand but in time to come he/she will or both of you will think of a way out.
think of the bright side. restarting might not be the best way. turning the table over, making a slam and a big surprise might make you happier.
months of self torment, thinking about negative thoughts, getting affected over what's not worth it has to be put to the end.
remember, you good old friends will always be here.
i am in perth!
got the days wrong
on someone's connection. the air is so fresh. the house is so fucking nice, i could stay here forever except that i am feeling quie bored. waiting for alex and jess to finish their classes and come meet me!
my parents want to treat them to dinner. my parents still think they are together since they are neighbours and go to the same college.
playing golf tmr. looking at universities too because my dad's friend son, darren is considering the uni here. he reminds me of myself years ago.
gtg
BYE
the smartest parents will make you feel fucking bad by being so nice and 'understanding'.
while i was playing with the water walls/fountains, my dad came to join in. he talked about how they gave in to me. they build the water walls because i love it when i was young. i like to run into fountains and get wet.
before my home was renovated, my room had a big glass panel which face directly to the water landscape.. my parents did it for me even though i soon was always not at home and cause alot of trouble.
my dad said i always gave them surprises after disappointment. they have never expected me to get that points for o'levels after 4 years of disappointing grades.
THAT IS NOT THE POINT
his point is, whatever i choose to do he will not stop me. i am now old enough to know what is right what is wrong.
even if they disapprove, they will not force me to change my ways for their sake.
and lastly, he said
dad will always support you no matter what decision you make. i know you hate business, you can do arts or media next time if you like
who will not feel bad?
what the fuck, i am thinking of taking some business component now. double degree will please everyone and myself.
and as for fagging, i will cut down even if i know he had a motive.
i will think about everything.
just need to vomit some thoughts
I AM GOING TO PERTH!
let me explain why the fuck am i so excited going to such a boring place. i will get to meet alex, jess, jr and a few other rugby/sch mates.
my parents need to go to perth to settle the house there so i decided to tag along. going there from thurs to sun!
i want to go to melb or sydney. it just reminded me that i have not been to aussie land for a very long time. i hope my dad needs to go to melb to visit his brother or something. so i can tag along again and visit chris and shuk! they want me to come! bring me to nice clubs!
can't i have both sides of fun? if time allows me to, i will fly to sydney even to find ben and shaun! i want to see how ben shuffles!
why did i go to LA? aussie seem like sucha nice place with good, great friends who are partying harder than they are studying
typed too much
my mum nagged at me for my very outstanding credit card bills. i can apply for club21 card and given vouchers so you can figure how much ive have spend.
bursted the credit card limit too.
she said NO SHOPPING in perth. anyway, there is nothing much to buy except nougats and how much can it cost?
jess, please do not bring me to any nice shopping places in perth. broke already. you know i can't resist the temptation.
i have to fit in a day to play golf.
alex, jr & jess, next fri come to my place in perth, of course. they will be a small party full of adults so you guys better accompany me!
2006-08-18my week have past really fast, going back to the LA soon.
singapore is fun. nothing can replace my time here. it seems like i will not be back for christmas. my family do not have the habit of spending christmas and new year in singapore. i would agree with that because there's nothing special here during such festive seasons, just spending more for the 'atmosphere'. i prefer a white christmas in new york of course!
perhaps the next time i will be back and see those in aussie again will in next year if our time does not clash.
most probably next autumn?
jeff said i cannot stay put at a place. from a few months in new york, few weeks in spore, more months in LA and i go missing after every few weeks. am i that difficult to locate?
my spore no is always in use so feel free to call/text me anytime.
my mobile phones are currently very back dated. i am using V3i - the d&g one, motorola L7 and N70. well, the states is not big in mobile phone sales. the phone you long discard could be the 'IN' thing there.
i like using motorola phones because they are so slim and stylish.
i bought a gucci wallet and my dad thought i bought it for him. he said thank you and he like it very much. wtf! anyway, it's charged on his account.
been shopping alot since JD came
went to AX came out with 8 tee, 1 shirt, 1 pair of pants then
fcuk with 4 tee, 1 shirt
then
blackjack with one jacket, heartache
then
d&g with a pair of jeans
then
AJ with 2 tee
then
gucci with 1 wallet, dad took it
the rest sponsored by my mother
- prada bag for school
- sneakers from Y-3
- watch from omega
- new golf set
not including food, transport, entertainment
- two bottles at devil's with the singaporean from my college
- food including the 100bucks burger and drinks
- catering for my back-to-spore party with champagne, chivas, beer, vodka.
time to go
bye
on friday afternoon, i recieve a bad news from my doctor.
a fucked up next semester's timetable.
my very fucking cool buddy flew from japan to singapore just to visit me! when will i see him again? he is going to vegas. not that far but i do have to get my ass to school. summer will never be that fun without him, weekends in LA will never be so entertaining & drinking will never be that hardcore.
JD, as gay as i sound or we sound. i will miss you!
why is life so unfair?
having a roller coaster ride, half a year full of ups and downs. keeping myself so fuckin busy so i will not have time to stop and reflect. i never doubt the way i chose to lead my life. i do think that by going overseas, studying something different from any usual sporean will broader my life, i will look at things from different perspective and i will grow and mature into a better person.
what i got in return during the past six months was feeling home sick, away from close friends and the self-discipline i failed to show.
i could relate so much from the movie 'click'.
i should treasure my family life more so my mum will not think she is losing her son. he does not talk to her, have meals with her and hardly see her even when they live under the same roof.
well, i never expect her to say she miss me so much. she told my trainer she did not want to go over to LA to visit me because she does not want to disturb me and me to be unhappy.
my fuckin family doctor is such a big mouth. he told my mum that he told me to go to the specialist because i complain of frequent gastric attack and asked for higher dosage of pain killer.
went to see the specialist. wtf. he said the next time i should come with my parents. he need to advise them.
so my mum is fucking worried and paranoid. she wants me to stay put in spore
bad news. i got fed up and threw the whole bag of nicotine gum flying into the fucking bin.
my mother is utterly devastated by my act and has no comments. she asked me to go to some island in thailand to pick up yoga for 10 fucking days. i will die of boredom.
these few days have been good. local food are the best!
as usual been going to the gym, drinking protein shakes. i hope i will be able to keep up with this routine when im back. it should be possible when i get my lisence.
going hongkong this weekend with my dad and daniel to shop and visit some uncles. all-boys-holiday!
hsu shuk mun, spore is different without you. no one esle will think of stupid things to do, stone for fucking 3hrs and like the other isolated end of orchard. cheer up lah, you sound rather stress? be touch to tears and give me a call to tell me you are alive
2006-08-03just a random thought
how is it if your life revolves around the gym and healthy living with no alcohol and night life?
i was talking to this person of my age at the gym the other day. she said her life was consists of studying and working out a year ago but she found no joy. was a really good, indepth conversation when it started off when she asked me if i was watching that channel.
met up with shawn and jeff for lunch then pool and catching up with our lives. next year, shawn is going to lse and jeff still thinking. he wants to do law. well, i also have to serve the national.
met up with the rugby guys for dinner. i do not dare to go back for training, i do not think i have the stamina.
EDWARD & LYNN are back!!
spending alot of time with daryl and daniel. daniel with his big day and all.
on the lighter note for friends, i have been chewing nicotine gum. i am trying my best. 2 sticks so far though it's only 6pm. i will survive! chewed a packet already.
2006-07-31everyone out of the sunny small island be jealous that i am back in singapore. i will wear red and white on national day. i forget when national day is btw.
foodfood and food!
daniel and eugene came to pick me up at 5am. very touched! so i treated them to prata, gave them each a dozen of krispy kreme!
yes dudes, i pass my napfa and i do not need to be enlisted early so 3 cheers.
back to the fucked up gym. my mum told me to get fit for next year and stop my 4000 calories diet(she's joking). appointment with my old trainer.
going to cali later to work out.
what a fuckin sad life i lead but after that it's sheesha time.
okay, good bye.
2006-07-21chris and shuk left me alone online. their status are always 'away' suddenly they said they GTG, bye at the same time! WHAT THE FUCK! our time difference is so huge, i do not always go online, both of them just left like that to go for a DRINK? so unappreciative. im sure they are going clubbing. those 2 idiots.
yes i am fucking bored
my comp's time is screwed up also. spore time?
it's okay, i am going back to spore in a few day's time.
my friends are back in their home country already, only ME - the poor soul left. my cousins have their own programs. i want an earlier flight back PLEASE.
the world cup finals are starting in a couple of hours! my cousins and i are going to watch it. we are wearing the jersey of the teams we support. FRANCE! yes, go france!
after a few more tests, i will be back in spore. so much shit has happened and i just want peace. im so tired, i need a break. it's my life, i choose how i want to lead it.
i miss my friends in spore, the whole grp - in all continents. i wish we were all back in sunny old spore chilling out, doing childish things and talking about our future.
BEN, get your ass back to spore will you? bloody don't give up your citizenship, just do NS. we will get through it.
i just want my old days back. happiness ain't like before. there's no way and ive accepted it and move on...
shuk told me something shocking on behalf of a very close cousin. i was shocked so are the rest if you happen to be reading. we are not blaming or looking down on you but we will stand by your side and we wish you will not give up on your future. no matter what happens, you will be welcome into our cousin's home! of course, the partying together and cousin's outing!
life is such a bitch.
fucking full of ups and downs.
summer sem is ending in a few wks. i am very happy and i cannot wait for my various trips - singapore, japan, san frans and newyork all in a mth
it is going to be rocking. finalise everything except the japan trip.
i did very well for my econs test. screw you fucking bitches who thinks that i only know how to rush out after class and sleep. i can do even better than you people.
drinking night yest. played card games and shot like hell. after that truth or dare, which was fucking funny. i was drunk. all i could remember was i kept helping others drink their shots. joe who's a bartender was trying out new mixes which some sucked. he tried to make singapore sling which taste like fruit punch.
i am seriously trying to cut down fagging but it is tough. fucking tough
big sales on, being a sissy and shopping half my day away.
i am enjoying school minus my 'best'friend. i did well for my last econs test! i incorporate 45minutes of econs study time and 30minutes of accounting prac every weekday! results are showing! going to the gym 3-4 times a week to workout.
my life's more productive
and partying on fridays & saturdays after a hard week.
whipping up a good meal with the guys or going out for dinner on sundays then for dessert at coldstones.
i have to keep this lifestyle up for the next sem!
my cousins and i have decided to go back to spore for two weeks, come back to LA and drive san frans. staying there for ard 3days. and fly up to new york and for 8days! perfect! they will be staying at my place in new york. that is HOME!
i cannot wait for my break.
ITALY WON!
2006-06-21back in LA
first day of school yest. i am retaking accounting + economics for summer because i flunk it.
to those who i said i will not be going back
YOU'VE BEEN PUNKED
the summer course is only 1mth. i better pass it this time.
i will be dividing my time between singapore, new york and japan.
jason and i are in the same account class. we did not understand a single shit on the first day. as usual, doubt we will pass accounting again. my 'best' friend is in the same class as me for econ, what a small world. heard of economics discussion? there fuckin is. i have to do grp wk with my 'best' friend. i rant all about my 'best'friend to alex and he laugh till he fell off the chair. i have to do it well, i cant keep taking econs. it will be the end of me
i want to transfer out of this class
grp meeting in 10 hours time
summer is so miserable. i cannot wait for the next sem. daniel is coming over.
just twenty days of school. 16hours of economics which i will fall in love with eventually.
who is the idiot who says summer schools are the best ever sem? i agree with the MOST MEMORABLE one, it will be.
have fun all those having holidays
and those who are having exams - MUG !
off for a drink or two
2006-06-19my results are out and i am fucking happy with my grades. all the hours of mugging with coffee, ben&jerry's, krispy kremes and everything.
though i flunk my econs and acct, it's all fine. did well for english and maths! that's what matters.
my trainer has been trying his best to stop me from drinking and fagging. dude, good try but it is tough. he compares what i can do last time and now.. muscle mass difference within months. he told me to meet him at macritchie at 7am, we jogged 8km. been training with him regularly and i went to the gym every single day since last week! at times at 4am at califlornia fitness which sucks.
going back for summer school in fuckin LA later. no more japan or new yk! last minute enrolment. parents said that i have had enough fun. did my ippt and that's the purpose of the short holiday.
at least i had fun in spore. meeting up with many people. going for underage party for the FIRST time. it was just bad - no alcohol,smoking. definitely, no pots. hahahhaha. daryl was overage there. had lunch with shawn on many days after working out.
had a small party at my place. bbq and world cup, daidee,bj later. many crashed at my place. we drank alot of beer and ordered mac at 4am. this is just like the sec sch days where classmates will come over to play games, watch soccer till dawn.
going for early dinner with alex, daryl, chris, jess, jr, danielle, jon, shawn and jeff.
i do not want to go back.
i want to go to ny and vegas.
WORLD CUP!
fucking aust team, 3 goals in 8 minutes! i was in shock. daryl started jumping in joy because he bet in aust! fuckkkkkkkkk. i had so much fail in jap.
brazil won 1-0! bingo to that
i watch the match in fear because 4k might go down the drain. shuk told jem 3-2! phew, i went with my instinct and research! hsu shuk mun msged me her bets! it's the world cup, do you think miss hsu will miss out on any?
fucking united states lost, did not bet much so it is okay.
watching soccer every night at the tv room is great with alex, ben and jon! throwing peanuts, eating mac at 4am!! and they will be sleeping over for 3 days in a row?
all in the name of WORLD CUP
went to surprise alex by going to the airport to pick him up! waited for 30 minutes! jess and jr were on a later flight. jon was back two days ago.
alex was craving for his katong laksa, so we went straight to eat. after that, he said the weather was too hot. he felt like eating ice kachang at kallang. wtf! so sam send us there. he bought otah, carrot cake, ice kachang, tau suan and some others. he bought, i paid because he did not have spore dollars.
after that went to his place, been ages since i've gone there! his mother invited me to stay for dinner, of course i did. i miss his maid's wonderful cooking and the dessert spread. japanese food for dinner which was great followed by cheese cake with vanilla ice-cream and last but not least my favourite mango pudding his maid makes! it is the best ever. his maid gave me a whole box !
this sound so gay but alex and i talked for 5 hours at the playgrd outside then we walk to holland v for a drink! again i paid for the drinks and alex took 4 sticks of my cig. i offered him my last stick. where can he find such a friend who treats him even better than he treats his mother!
going out with the usual grp tmr BUT shuk, edward, lynn are not here.
this sucks!
but no worries, i will share the fun we had with you all.
continue my shopping trip from LA to singapore
and then japan
then new york
and of course the food.
went to straits kitchen last night
so far ive eaten american club's indian food, scott's beef noodles, yong tou fu,
chompchomp's the night before was mad! daryl and i order stingray, lala, carrot cake, hokkien mee, satay, chicken wings, fried rice and sugar cane. just for the both of us! it was just too much so called danielle to come over to help us. but it was fucking good.
it was not the end. we went to play pool. we played for ard 3 hours. after that, we went to jalan kayu at 12am for prata and milo dino. one plain and one mushroom, cheese prata!
alex is coming back on SATURDAY! i finally get to meet my old time best friend after a year!
followed by many...
sure you guys want to make it back to see me!
i am back in singapore!
the moment i got back i went for breakfast at kallang. it was good.
eugene and daniel came over! talk, slack a while then we went to ssc to bowl.
they unpacked my stuff and the boxes of stuff they ask me to get for them and all the snacks
we went to meet our parents for lunch at some japanese restaurant.
after that we went to play pool. went all the way to jalan kayu for prata. daryl came to meet daniel and i. went to chill at his place. his maid cooked us a damn good dinner because i said i just came back today.
started our drinking game.. got high nd i fell asleep at night! no jetlag
going to sicc to hit some balls then meet shaun and jeff for lunch.
then go shopping
dinner at straits kitchen. drinks at devils!
the rest should be back soon!
quick quick quick! i only have two weeks here.
i need to go to the denist, cut my hair, redye my hair very badly.
and sunday is FAMILY DAY
breakfast with parents
9-holes with dad and his friend
lunch with grandma and relatives
catch up session with cousins which i think i would skip. facing those bitches.. underage parties? omg. that's why clubbing in spore sucks. they just want to earn money. sure you girls had alot of fun there. you never know what clubbing is really like! LA is the bomb! mention that because she talked to online about the 'parties' she have been going.
for non-smokers or people who cannot stand the smoke smell, the underage parties are for you guys
bloody cannot stand people who purposely diss smokers. smokers are not AH BENGS. get that right in your head! damn it, the culture is so different.
that's for now.
i am going to japan the week after!
then to new york!
impressed by shuk's knowledge of media. the low budget artist films are called indie films!
that's what comes out from a student who takes media and communications
i want to take that subject too! i want to watch such films! fuck, im a deprived geek wannabe
going to the airport in a few hours! for the first time, i feel so excited to go back to spore! i am usually reluctant to fly back after a trip.
will be able to meet alex, ben, jon, jess, shaun and jr when they get back!!
i need to go for medical check up for my national service. fuckkkkk and fitness test.
going to hit the gym hardcore once i am back. my trainer has a program ready to get me fit in time for the test
he does not know how bad my stamina is now though i have been jogging thrice a week and doing weights. excessive alcohol and fagging perhaps ruin my hardwork.
if daryl can get gold, A for his 2.4km. i am sure i can do it too. i heard mr monitor have been working out in the gym so frequently, 3hours per session and cycling to his college! mike, we cannot lose out!
remember last yr's napfa.. where i was faster than him by one and a half round! i stopped and he thought he also finish!
if this yr, it turns out the other way round. i will hide my face and fly all the way back to LA, hide in chinatown and blend in with the chinese and never appear in singapore ever again.
i need to get gold. i cannot and will never allow myself to get in earlier because im unfit.
2 weeks to train up. i will consume no alcohol or fag! everyday i will go to the gym, jog 6km. do weights training.
in the evening, i will run another 5km in east coast park. start drinking creatine.
and follow my trainer's program + diet(protein protein and protein!)
i will go run 5km before i bath and head to the airport
i thought this only happen on tv serials where the grandparents/uncle/parents will tell the younger generation the history of how the company began and how much hard work was put in, the difficulites faced and so on...
omg
i never expect my grandaunt to tell me this
i found it so amusing and least entertaining.
save it,
never will you adults talk me out of my interest of ART and MEDIA
but without your hard work i will not be able to do art and media
i wasted this whole semester doing every subject that i do not like
econs, calculus, accounting, chemistry, physics...
related to art?
hell NO
THAT'S WHY I AM HAVING SUCH A MISERABLE TIME. fuck that consultant. it was written, choice of course - BUSINESS MANAGEMENT.
next semester, it will with MY kind of subjects.
went to jason's bandroom and blast the music. it was hell good to destress especially jamming
good fun
the last time i touch the drumsticks was when i was sec 2 or 3?
i help jason do his sketches. i should go join his design class.
my dad ask if i want to give up my spore citizenship for US citizenship. the thought of NS turns me off, how much i like new york and LA(quite okay), spore education system and small land area but those factors will never ever make me give up my singapore citizenship up.
unless i was raise in the states, it would be a different situation.
many singaporeans who go overseas do not want to go back to spore. i do not understand why? after all, you're bred in singapore. going overseas does not mean fleeing from spore but gaining exposure and growing up.
why are sporeans not proud to say they are from singapore?
if one ask me which country i am from, i will proudly say that i am from singapore.
i do not go till the extend that i go for every national day or sing the athemn everyday but i do know where my roots come from, where i was bred and where my 10 yrs of education came from.
no offence to any fuckin person who does not agree with this.
2006-05-23shuk and i played hexic for FOUR hours! it's some old school game but it was so addictive. i did not had class yesterday or rather i wish i did not had class so i grant my own wish!
i am currently having examinations.
so two papers down. felt so happy aft econs paper, a load off. jason and i went to starbucks, took away 4 venti latte. brought all the notes/books/paper to the dining table and started studying at 8pm all the way till 4am with companions like krispy kremes, oreo cereal, milk, tea and cigg. went for the paper the next day. i hope i do well.
suppose do read chemistry notes but was playing hexic. did not sleep for fucking 30 hours. going to crash, wake up and study for chemistry.
ser say she is going to support us morally by buying krispy kremes and cooking us a good dinner and supper.
the maths paper was 3 fucking hours long. was tired, could not concentrate. i bought a cup of latte and i forgot to bring it in. i finish the paper in 1 hour. the china ass geek was still doing the second last question when i got out. i felt proud for a moment and stupid after thinking through what i have written.
i am so fucking stress
i need to do well so i can get into a good university
9 days more till home sweet home
i am fucking stress
i went to the club, drank fucking 8 shots of tequilla, 3 vodka lime and 2 barcardi 151. needless to say i got fucking drunk. i forgot how i got back or who pulled me out of the club and if i did pay for my drinks
i finish a packet of dunhills in a night or did someone stole my cigs or did i play a generous basturd who constantly gave out cigs like flyers?
shuk wants to be mention here, like anyone even reads this
talked to shuk and shared about our lives. catch up session on the phone.
the sweetest message she texted after the conversation,
"dude, i accept you for who you are. even if you smoke, drink or eat tar, i will never detest, hate or dislike you. let's lead a healthier life style by sleeping earlier ... "
shuk, right back at ya!
i cannot wait to get back to spore. i cannot wait to step into my room, games room, town, poolside, devil's, prata place and so on
finally i will be meeting up with my friends in spore - daryl, shawn, jeff, eugene, ex classmates and so on
to hell with this shit i cannot take it anymore! i have been away for fucking 5 months. i still cannot go back till summer school ends? i called my mum and told her that i am too fucking stress to continue with school and i miss home so much. i want to go back or at least go to new york for summer sch. the good news - i am going back to singapore on 1st june till 17th june then going to new york for a short course most probably going back to singapore again. after fall, i will be back in spore for good 2 years. by then all my friends have graduated and move to universities already or got their degree and back to their countries
2006-05-13just a thought
if you say you dislike, detest or hate smokers, what if your good friend smokes. does it mean he/she will not be your friend? does it mean because of the extra stick he/she holds at times, the years which it took to build up the friendship is gone?
persuading a smoker to quit is tough and fucking annoying at times. you think they do not attempt to try? they do all the time but it is just fucking tough
i am trying to but give me time. cutting down isn't that easy.
i spend 1 hour looking at the summer timetable then the fall timetable.
i am going to spend 6 fucking weeks of summer in school. planning the subjects and my timetable. most look at the lecturer while i look at the time. i need to count the units and make sure i can score for the subjects.
mathematics is my best subject so far.
i do not understand why economics is so important.
accounting is another mother fucking subject.
i am taking ARTS, PSYCHOLOGY during summer school.
i can only go back to spore in august! fall class will be in dec!
back to my RESEARCH
2006-04-30i tried so hard but it came to nothing
perhaps no one have move on yet
i will do anything to get the kind of days i spend in spore, even if school suck bad. classmates do not.
it will never happen again. everyone move on with their lifes be it overseas, jc or poly.
i do not mind being in aussie land.
cheesecake factory has the best food!
i replied a few emails from the people in perth and sydney! your lifes sound so fucking fun. sorry for the very late reply because i have not been online.
where's the one in melb? i heard she sleeps for long hrs and watch tons of dvds everyday!
should i come back in dec or go for fall schooL? i will be coming back in JULY for one odd month i guess but i will not stay put in spore.
results were okay except for econs. doing good in maths, com, physics. party hard and study comes together. you cannot do without any.
went snowboarding last wkend. the snow is starting to melt! no more snowboarding! been snowboarding frequently. when i found a new sport, the snow is starting to melt. oh well, i went to the gym yesterday. i was dying, my stamina has gone down. too much drinking.
good news! i will be able to drive in august. currently taking driving lessons. have not thought of what car to get, i do not fancy cars so i will get one which is practical. i am thinking of bmw's 5series.
i cannot wait to drive. i cannot stand waiting for someone to send me. the public transport is rather confusing.
going shopping later with my cousins
2006-04-18the party was ROCKIN'!
i did enjoy the preparation more than the party. 4 of us started preparing from 4pm. 2 hours i woke up. raine had the hardest time banging my door, jason literally kicking my door. calls after calls, i still could not wake up till 2pm! was out dota-ing with my mates.
started cooking the rice. boiling the potatos. cutting the veg.
ser and raine were baking cheesecake which turn out bad. they tried again and it was FANTASTIC. they made 3 cakes and all eaten up. jason and i ate half the cake before the party.
we made the miso soup from scratch, even the dashi stalk! you got to be impressed. jason and i were looking at the recipe and following it religiously.
the japanese curry was too little but everyone praise it.
sushi making part was the thing. sushi is too much trouble, self-made handroll did the trick. we just place packets of seaweed and the ingredients for sushi. sure did everyone love making handrolls.
i made the potato salad using shuk's recipe, i even called her to double check. it taste good, better than what shuk made though i have not tried it before
jason and his award winning fried udon.
and the LYCHEE MARTINI!
i drank 1Litre of it! ser, you rock my world for bringing your bartender friend!
alot of drinking (it was as good as FREE FLOW) almost every grp that came brought at least a bottle. we ended up not even finishing ser's supply. there are still 4 bottles of vodka, 2 chivas, 1martel, 2 barcadi and some other random items. it will last us at least two parties.
after 2am it all turn wild!
it was fun
every single person who i invited came, i was so glad and surprised. they gave me face despite knowing me for only 2 months.
at least 70 people came and quite a few stayed over. i ended up sleeping at 7am.
so much fun during this break
but school have started
a pile of assignments and tests.
house party on saturday!
for the first time, my cousins and i are going to cook for .... 50 people which might be more. jason, raine, ser and my friends are coming. i invited my whole maths class and the usual gang and my party mates. i have no idea how many will turn up
ser bought tons of alcohol from dutyfree. she is going to settle the drinks and music, raine the deco and random stuff. jason and i the FOOD!
4 of us went grocery shopping at the jap supermarket just now. jason and i plan to cook JAPANESE FOOD. sushi, tempura, japanese curry(instant) just dump the chicken in, fried jap noodles, miso soup(instant), jap potato salad(shuk's recipe) and teriyaki chicken.
dessert - ice cream with your own toppings.
raine and ser said they are going to bake cheesecake which i highly doubt so.
i do hope we will succeed if not FRIED RICE/NOODLES PARTY!
this party isn't that easy to plan. i hope it won't be that over congested.
jason just told me at least 30 of his friends will come plus 25 of mine. ser and raine will not be less than 40?
let's get the party started
2006-04-13no alcohol for 3 days. no partying. no late nights except sleeping late to dota and play ps2.
i do miss having part of my life dedicated to sports. it was after giving up my passion, every aspect of my life went down. from indirectly leading to self destruction
though i have no problems in college, no bad records or bad grades. outside school, it's a whole transformation.
i had a long talk with my dad. if i did not talk to him, he would not have realise my life was like that. he thought i have change due to the change in my results. he was glad before i called him but i disappoint him again. his piece of advice, "have all the fun but know your limit"
i am still growing up
this stage is tough
i am trying
i am struggling
thank god for the holiday at san frans with the guys tmr
thanks edward, shuk, lynn.
2006-04-09i am exhausted from all the partying from the past month. i should take a break. i am beginning to dislike my lifestyle.
my life wasn't like that 5 months ago. i had fun but not this kind of fun. fun for the moment but after the moment it goes back to square one. it's not the fun + happiness and fond memories i get when i go out with the grp, hanging ard and chilling at pubs.
it is
different
damn,
i really miss those days
those years which we spend together
though we were not always as a whole and some come and go. we still enjoy and had fun. doing crazy things, cracking lame jokes, slacking at cafes, exploring places we have never gone to, mugging together to even stoning.
we(alex, shuk, jess, edwin, edward and i) watched each other change in terms of hair, style, fashion to even school through out the years.
friends who i have known for a yr or so or less. daryl, shawn lee, jeff, jeremy, john, lynn, jing, sab, jas, samantha, JJ, darren, marcus - we did had our fun times though short and few.
my classmates and team mates though we do not hangout that often. i do miss dota-ing with you guys! i am sorry for never turning up for class outings and activities.
the holidays which gave me more time to think through stuff and about my future and how my life is going it's direction.
reflections are good once in a while
and my biggest regret - smoking. it was that moment again, it's easy to pick up but not easy to quit. seriously, im trying my best
this post sound so gay but i am never that serious.
i just need space to vomit my thoughts and mix feelings.
shuk, thanks for listening to me. the time difference makes conversations like these more precious.
2006-04-08over, it's over! it's play time but i do not get to go back to spore!
partied our nights away. i am so fucking exhausted now
party at my place later! hardcore drinking!
alot of partying these few weeks despite of exams. hope i will do okay for econs, lit, chemistry, maths.
damn, i did try to mugggg
went shopping the other day and i burn a big hole in my account balance. it's worse than ozone depletion. the nights out club hopping and drinking is going to kill my liver, i should cut down. i will and nicotine intake.
shuk is in spore but she is sad. all of us are not in spore except for the army boys but being army boys they will be in camp, her other friends are schooling or working. you should have stayed in melb to party!
i will be going to san frans during the break! fun fun fun! i am thinking of flying to new york to meet edward and lynn but my dad does not want to pay for my tickets!
i wish i was in spore. my account does not deplete that quickly even if i did shop more and buy more nett items instead of going to factory outlets here!
i feel so fucking pathetic here. i only have 1 bank account.
if i was in spore, if this account is empty, i have another one or i can get cash easily
BUT it's fucked up here.
i only have what my parents give me or any kind soul willing to donate to me
i have to admit that my kind of lifestyle don't come cheap and healthy. even if you have the cash, think of your health.
addictions are hard to kill
the damn crumpler designer change my whole fucking design. they do not even know how to cut out the wordings i told them to or at least what chris or shuk instructed them to.
i have a fucking econs test later. i am so screwed for it as usual.
scooping ben&jerry's while staring at my text. what a life.. this is killing me
my fucking phone bills can buy me a PSP! the house phone bills can buy an ipod video. there goes another hole into my bank account.
shaun is coming over to LA during his break. ben, shawn, jess, alex and john are having their holidays now.
i had a very bad hangover. 4 of us could finish a bottle of chivas, vodka and half a bottle of jack daniels.
this caused me to miss my damn tutorial and lectures. i miss the quiz too which will affect my over grade. i do regret drinking far too much.
drinking is bad. kids below 16 should not be drinking! not even barcardi breezer which i drink as a soft drink. strictly NO. say NO!
2006-03-11another week has pass..
life is so damn fucking fun here! i am trying to find time to go online and chat up with my friends in spore. the time difference makes it worse too.
i have not been working out, i am too lazy. i have no more stamina to play tennis, rugby and all that kind of sports. i won't be able to lift the amt of weights i could. this is fucking bad. my cousin said i should join a gym or start jogging on the treadmill which says something... BAD
i want to go back to spore badly for a haircut. my haircolour is running... i also need a new haircolour. ben dyed his hair JET BLACK! what the fuck! i was laughing my ass off when he was show me his new aussie-style hairstyle!
so i conclude i will only cut my hair in asian countries!
the fucking sch gives tons of assignments.
krispy kremes addicts, be jealous. i have 2 dozens of donuts in my house now! i eat them every week till i get so sick of them
i am still thinking how the hell should i tell the hairstylist to cut my hair and what colour should i dye it. i was thinking abt red but red will turn copper which i do not like unless my base is brown.
in short, fly me back to spore for a haircut!
2006-03-05it's MARCH !
i took part in JAE, i got in ACJC! sorry for being so selfish, i wanted to see where my standard was.
congrats DARYL, DANIEL, JEROME, JJ for your A level results! especially daryl, you are my idol! let's celebrate when i am back!
i went grocery shopping with my cousins. we bought 400 bucks worth of groceries. alot of junk food, microwave food, ice cream, chips! i am living on all that unhealthy junk! hsu shuk mun is talking abt how nice her timtam BALLS are which i have yet to try them !
a whole week of school
i have alot of assignments to do. everyone ace their econs test while i did so badly. my GPA is going to be very pathetic.
2006-02-25another week has pass without me realising which means life's good though i miss a little of spore here and there.
more of my friends so the country does not matter.
shuk and i are the only ones with no companion as in from the group. i miss our outings, potblack, devil's, american club, bowling, chilling out at any cafes, bj session.
i wonder when all of us could have a chance to do this all over again.
i have been online for a longer time than my usual, i do miss the time in spore where i would hang out with the guys or the group. it was fun, we could talk about every single thing. i miss the ARMY GUYS who never fail to complain about army.
it will be a fast year and i will be back for army. a yr later, university and pay back during vacations. booked my ticket to come back in june!
webcam with shuk and chris for a hour. chris was cooking while shuk was reading and showing that she was so seriously reading. they seem to be having so much fun while i was eating ben and jerrys.
i want to eat FRIED RICES !
i was paying my sg phone bills online so i just log on to update. my comp's clock is screwed.
college is still alright. they give us assignments to do. essays and all that shit. being late for lecture isn't very unusual, i am trying to turn up for as many lectures as i can last. school ends so late and by the time i get back i get so fucking sleepy. i do not have the energy to go online. i will dump a pack of frozen food into the microwave or call for delivery or wait for my cousin to cook. i only go out for dinner when i have transport or when sch ends early.
i was talking to ben, shaun, alex, jess online yesterday. they are doing fine in different parts of aussie. they are enjoying the whole new place!
i am not really homesick, i mean everyone should look forward for a new experience. it is so different from singapore. the way life is like. being away from home have really taught me so much stuff that i will not have learn if i am in spore.
you have nothing to lose if you try sth new rather than staying in your home country. if you think the negative after leaving your country, you will never grow or learn things you can never learn from books or the internet.
im sure giving up the luxury of being serve, guided and the familar environment for a brand new experience is well worth it.
even if it is tiring, i'm starting to enjoy everything
i chose my subjects and all that crap. scheduled my classes mostly in the late morning and it will be a 3 day week for me. orientation is fucking boring!
my parents were over for the weekend so as usual, we went shopping. they bought alot of stuff and many abercombie stuff back for my cousins.
life is not that interesting when they are here. my cousins stop their wild partying at home because my uncles and aunties are here. they use up the 3 guest rms, entertainment room we use to play our games are taken up by my uncle for the NEXT TWO FUCKING WKS!
my dad thinks the house is far too quiet. usually when i have web conf with him it will be hell noisy.
shuk is in melbourne! i think she is having some fun there?
2006-02-10the principal called me to tell me my results! i got the shock ! he called back 10 mins later saying he told me the wrong results, my heart stopped for that moment. he said instead of 13, i've gotten 11! i asked him to repeat it!
fucking ELEVEN POINTS! nothing can spoil my day even if i was woken up from a good sleep! if i minus my CCA pts, it will be NINE! 4A1s, 2A2, 1C5, 2C6! did real badly for my humans.
my mother was so happy! she said she is going to fly over during the weekend and my dad too!
BEN SCORED A2 FOR HIS CHINESE!
shuk, cheer up! it's over, move on! you've nothing to be worry about.
i had alot of trouble getting on the damn flight!
apparently i did not book the date of my return flight when i press the submit button. total screw up. the flight i wanted to take was full so i had to wait for the next flight, landed in LA at some weird time. had to take a cab to my apartment. damn it, this is called independent.
THANK YOU DANIEL, EUGENE, DARYL AND SHUK for the wonderful surprise! i was touch to tears but i did not tear! shuk gave me lilac roses because i said no one gave me roses before! for once, she actually went all the way to get it.
results out on friday!
this is fucking freaking me out!
i had a very enjoyable conversation with shuk. we talked alot about how we feel, it has been a while since we had a heart-to-heart talk. it was really meaningful. ironic, these kind of conversations never happen when im in sg.
in the states, i played DAIDEE with a few sporeans. it was fucking fun! we played for 5 hours! one buck per card. i miss all the 50 bucks per card games in spore.
college have started and i feel so lost and bored. during the talks, a grp of us will just skip it and go to the library to play our psp or cards or we will talk.
new sch-ing life
enjoy all
brunch with my classmates and a few ruggers! went to mambo after that. went to chill at some cafe, ren, raymond, fer, sab, daryl came to join us. some of them left.. went to watch chingay? played cards. then went for dinner. went to some pub to chill with ray, daryl and jeff, spend 400odd bucks on drinks! daryl drank the most, he was drunk! fucking drink that he doze off. shuk came! ray said he wanted to go buy 4D because shuk came, he treat her to SINGAPORE SLING! shuk's 1st time drinking tht. shuk drank 3 glass of baileys and 1 gin tonic in a short while. she drinks them like she's drinking water.
i have to pack
i cannot stay till the results get release. my mum said she wants to collect my results for me. i wonder how she will react.
spore fucked up govt have some new ruling system. i got to back in spore to serve the nation before starting university. college ends in a year, after that i am going to summer school!
went to skate last night and something very funny happen then supper at newton. played cards at andrew's house till 4am. after that, alfred, jh and i did not feel like going home so we went to eat prata, continue playing cards for a while.
i went home, wash up and change then went to meet daniel for lunch then eugene join us later at potblack.
got home by 5 and slept all the way till 11. i am having my dinner now.
i miss those days! i don't have the stamina like i do in secondary school
shit, i am flying off on fucking monday morning.
i still have not done many things yet!
i played daidee from 11am all the way till 4pm while eating lunch we were still playing and playing and playing! i won $200 in total.
this is very addictive!
shuk was playing daidee in her sch's canteen! lol.
i am going to the gym later
then dinner with my dad and uncle
i am going to learn how to play majong tonight
perhaps more daidee/bj tmr with a different grp of pple.
without gambling, chinese new yr won't seem that fun!
i am FUCKING BORED. stoning so fucking badly on a public holiday.
why is everyone busy? or at least those who i have asked. is it because it is a fucking public holiday and everyone is busy visiting?
i cannot find anything to do! spore is so fucking boring unlike the states where parties go on and on. you have so many things to do. even going grocery shopping keeps you so busy! shopping will take an entire day. traveling to a nice place for a meal will take at least 4 hours. chilling out at pub/club would end at 4am. taking a stroll would sound more sensible there than strolling in spore. no one will call you insane if you ever go to the gym near midnight. waking up at weird hours for conference would screw my bodyclock and i will end up sleeping through, wasting a day eventually. i hate it to happen but at least i will not feel bored.
i miss new york! i am going to stay in LA for at least a year
most of the pple i always talk to online are either offline or away/brb/out for lunch.
my later part of yesterday was just playing cards all the way at my grandma's house, dinner at her house too. did not win much.
cny party at my house later
why do i already have plans for wed, thur, fri, sat when i do not have plans for today, at least for the earlier part of the day?
2006-01-30i came to my grandma's house at fucking 1030! my family was the first to arrive.
my grandma is so hip unlike the other side's ah ma! she said my hair was nice and black hair is boring! she likes my ed hardy's top! she told my dad to wear like me! LOL
i am still at my grandma's house. waiting for daniel and eugene to come. i cannot stand two of my cousin, fucking bitches they are. i said, "happy new year" to them they did not even reply, one of them came to ask me about my 'life', she is the same age as me and who cares which fucking jc are you in now. she even said, " let's hang out soon before you leave "
first you dao me, later you try to be friendly. wtf!
many of my cousins are in the states!
i was so fucking pissed off with her. when she sees me in town, i do not think she even says hi or smile to me and now she tries to act all friendly in front of the relatives
that fucking bitch knows ALEX and JEREMY.
she can mingle so well with the aunties and uncles
my relatives are asking me non-stop about my education! how i did for prelims? i did do AL-RIGHT.
this auntie asked me, " why are there so many sticks in ur ears? "
LOL.
lunch time
2006-01-29reunion dinner was fucking boring because it was with my dad's family. daniel, eugene and all the cousins i can have fun with were not there!
i can never talk naturally with any of my cousins there. it was fuckin boring. they ask me all about my trip and my college, what i intend to study and how life is like there? when they heard i went to thailand, they asked even more.
they have too much comments abt my hair and attire when i wore the most unwashed jeans and a simple RED top. i specially went home to change before going! they do not know what is my style? i like my hair coloured weirdly, that's my problem.
before dinner, hung out in town with dL, daniel and eugene. pooled and i got thrashed so badly. before that was family lunch which was much better because it was with my mum's family.
going house visiting tmr. i am going for the sake of hongbaos. i got my outfit ready and my dad wants to check for fear my grandmother gets so angry.
yest, i had so much fun without shuk ( i am just jk)! she was still at mambo when i called her! had some miscommunication, dL thought i already told shuk while i thought shuk was coming with dL since they were neighbours.
we went to watch geisha where i fell asleep. that movie was fucking long.
then went for dinner.
dL, daniel, eugene stayed over. played cards, dota-ed here and there from 12am all the way till 5am with breaks in between. i lost 300 hundred bucks.
i went back to my sch to say hi to my teachers. max even gave the teachers oranges! lol
i have not unpack my stuff yet. there is no point since i will be leaving next week.
college offically starts on 7th feb.
i am back in singapore!
i made a very stupid mistake, i miss ben, jess and shaun's flight. i did not get to send them off! i was hoping my plane bump into theirs.
i am still jetlagging. shuk have already told her blog readers abt the incident! she is mad. today she bluff her way through the game of bluff. i gave her face so as to not expose her! she kept catching me.
aaron and shuk are sch mates! they ask me to crash MI. shuk offered to accompany me bcos she do not go for her lessons.
today, went to the gym. then went to dye & highlight my hair. met shuk after her session for coffee and ice cream. daryl, aaron, bren came. we started playing cards. we nearly flip the table. shuk left, came back aft a while to say BYE
we went for dinner then to devil's bar for some drinks.
yest, i went a workout session at 1pm with my trainer. i gave my trainer a bag full of snacks since he is so fit, he needs to gain more fats! after that i went to play pool with jj, daniel, don and some others at pot black.
caught in her shoes. some chick flick which suck big time.
going to wake up early tmr for prata
i will plan the rest of my day later
it is already 2006
life's good here but i miss spore so fucking much
I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT TO GO BACK TO SPORE !
i am going back for cny! i have gotten ready my cny clothes
so fucking lonely here, i can't get my driving lisence yet
now i find myself so dumb for coming up to ny so early
because of some shit.. college does not start so early
i am not going to stay in ny, i am moving to LA.
wtf, so i have been busy packing my stuff.. i am not going to bring all my stuff there.
next monday i will go and look for a damn house.
my mum is fucking angry with me, i burst my credit card limit again. i have fucking nothing to do at home so i end up shopping online when i eyes get tired of all that computer games!
when i get sick of games, i need to go shopping for new one.
she does not get that i need some sort of fuckin entertain when i cannot get out of the house without the help of my cousins and friends.
there is no such thing as SAM driving me to anywhere i want to go here!
going to start school in spring!
ben, shaun, jess, bren, jr and a few others will not be in spore when i am back.
fuckkkkkkking shit! i will try to get a flight back earlier!
jeff, shawn, shuk, gab, jj, ray, dL said that they will be in sg. if they are not, i will slaughter them
let's welcome 2006.
a whole new thing with no spore's sunny sunday.
i am missing singapore!
shaun is in new york too but he is going back a few days later, i am fucking envious. met up with him a few days back.
2005 have been such a love-hate year for me
o levels came and flew away! i did had such a good time mugging with ben, daryl, shuk and many others.
my tuition teachers did me some good, i did them good by feeding their families.
i must thank my chinese tuition teacher for all the crash courses which i survived through and that primary one little girl who i enjoy pulling her hair and that's cos she's so fucking adorable. i am jealous that she speaks better chinese than i do.
i had a fantastic class.. i fucking miss ponning school, sleeping in class, eating in class and the fun times with the teachers during extra lessons.
move on.. my year isn't all about studying !
i miss thailand
and all the chilling, pubbing, slacking, overnights in my tv rm
friends come and go.
alex left for perth this year and i was sad, really sad.
edwin and i had this big fight but to end the year off well we are friends again.
i am missing all my friends!
DARYL, i want to go to your house now!
SHUK, i miss waiting for you!
BEN, from hi-bye friends to good buddies
JEM, sharks are evil? what say you?
ALEX, friends for 14 years!
JOHN, man u or arsenal? or DRAW
EUGENE, you punk
JEFF, crashing parties? i am going to crash your gucci shades!
SHAWN, tell me i am darker now!
SHAUN, sometimes i detest you but after all you're such a pal
JESS, how's your other half?
the rest of my friends, YOU DID MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE!
LYNN & EDWARD ARE AT MY HOUSE NOW! so i do not miss them
2005 have been a blast
time for some new yr resolution
2005-12-26a long time since i updated.
i am in new york now and i fucking miss spore. i miss the party at shaun's house. i hate to hear that it was fun.
at least my christmas was a white christmas! new york is my favourite city with nice night scenes
settling down here is not that easy with my close friends in all parts of the world. i am going to stay with my cousin and soon daniel will come join me after his ns.
college is going to start in jan but i am going back for cny! spending 4-5 days in spore. the flight is so fucking long!
i have been shopping alot to prepare for college.
my stuff were overlimit, my stuff alone weigh 140kg and my parents each 15kg each so the 50kg each not enough.
i brought too much things, i brought 40 pairs of shoes here and so much more....
NOW I CANNOT WAIT TO GET BACK TO SPORE.
I MISS MY DOG!
I MISS MY HOME!
I MISS MY ROOM! I MISS MY GAME ROOM!
I MISS MY FRIENDS! I MISS EVERYTHING IN SPORE!
I MISS KATONG FUCKING ALOT!
I MISS PLAYING GOLF AND SLACKING IN THE CAFE!